what i've only had as nightmares, once become reality...

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28.1.1011 friday

it was about nine o'clock when i started to pack my bags for the coming mid-semester break+ Chinese new year holiday...that night was calm with a slight rain. back from dinner with my friend ayu adela (had a super delicious megi sup), i headed straight to the laundry room to wash my cloths. that night i done it automatically cause it's rain like forever in kuantan these days~~

it's passed 1 am when i finally decide to glanced at the clock~ after washing my face n brushed my teeth, i climbed my bed with a happy mood cause all my work is done. can't wait to leave for JB tomorrow!

29.1.2011 saturday (finally! i'm going home)

as promised, at 915am,me, yaya (not real name as requested) and izzie (not real name also hahaha) met up in front of the cf sister for the delivery car to terminal makmur....at about 920am we sailed through out of UIA kuantan :))))

as we waited for the bus at the station, izzie took out the ticket and gave it to yaya. Yaya took a glanced at the ticket and suddenly sprung "Izzah! ticket pukul 9.00 la...kita kena tinggal ni!"

huhu...panicked...panicked...breath in breath out...

the ticket was actually at 9.00 am and obviously we missed the bus (cause izzie thought it was at 10am)... hehehe... i'm panicked but i didn't utter a word cause i don't know what to say... hahaha... izzie must have been really panicked at that moment cause she's in charge of keeping the tickets...finally, yaya n izzie decided to look up for another 3 tickets..no matter what happened we must get home today!!!! screamed izzie in her heart~maybe ^^

it was a very long day....

alhamdulillah we manage to get tickets at 1 pm that same day! but it's not from Transnasional... the bus was Cepat Ekspress....in the bus there's no single seats...omg, i started to panicked again...i hoped i didn't have to sit next to a man cause it will be really uncomfortable all the way. unfortunately, a man shows his ticket and his seat was next to me...it was a nightmare again...huhu

the bus was not comfortable at all, the seats are small, the man's shoulder always touched my shoulder (dosa!!) and the bus doesn't stops for sholat. that's bad! that's why i hate bus expresses!! Transnasional busses had always stop for rest and sholat for half an hour at least!

i should had asked the man to exchange the seat to another woman, but it sounded selfish of me...huhu...finally i decided to crammed myself to the side and avoid from all the accidental touching...

finally at about 7 pm, i reached my stop, and my father picked me up right after....at about 8 pm i'm finally safe at home :)))))))

stay positive until the end no matter what happened! ^^

AJL 25

Ana Raffali won the AJL 25 yesterday with her own song "Tolong Ingatkan Aku," (-____-)

Too bad cause I'm hoping for Faizal Tahir. His music with Audi Mok was always something. ^^

Got an email from Sis Nurlin regarding our Industrial Placement for this coming semester break~ Still can't decide but I'm hoping for Hospital Sultanah Aminah or Hospital Sultan Ismail in Johor, so that I can stay at home hehe ^^

When I watched AJL last night I figured out that Malaysian artist wasn't that bad~ Bunkface, Yuna, Syahir and Adira had proven something. Edry KRU is a good composer as well~ ^^ Nevertheless Faizal Tahir is the best~ :pppppp

okay, I'm out~ got to study for tomorrow clinic! ^^ Bro. Saiful always said "What's important in clinic is PREPARATION, PREPARATION, and PREPARATION..."

My dream...

Hehe…I remembered one person asking me what my dreams are…of course I didn’t answer immediately. Instead I asked about his dream first. ^^ he answered shortly that he don’t have one right now because he had just finished his diploma in business and he had jumping on different jobs lately. This young man was an acquaintance of me while I was working in a factory as an operator.

I said “wow…” finding a job is not easy I guessed even though you already had a diploma. Then it is my turn to tell him about mine.

I said to him~ I really want to graduate and starts to work as soon as possible. Short and simple.

:D… there he goes grinning so widely beside me.

I asked “what?” (-____-)

“do you have boyfriend?”

“what…boyfriend? All of a sudden? You laughed at me just now!” *****oh, and I really did converse with him in English because he’s an Indian.

“you have one right?”

“no, I don’t,”

“ahhh…tipuuuu~~ tipu la…orang mcm you takkan la takde boyfriend,”

“betul la..tak caya sudah,”

“kenapa? You memilih eh…”

Wah sedap nyer ko cakap~~

“tak lah, in my religion, we have principal…ada peraturan…ada syarat…”

“ye ke? Abes kenapa I tengok ada je orang melayu yang tak pakai tudung?”

Haha~ orang melayu~~

“tak boleh la cakap macam tu… bukan salah Islam tapi salah orang islam tu sendiri kan…”

“but I don’t get it la…why you guys have to wear tudung hah? From what I can see I can guessed what… you punyer rambut panjang kan? Why your god ask to cover it?”

Tercengang aku dengar penyataan mamat tu…hah yana, macam mana ko nak jawab ni? Mama kat rumah… mama, kakyan nak jawab apa kat Indian boy ni?

“saya tak boleh la tanya kenapa peraturan tu ada… dan saya tak boleh la bagi tau awak rambut saya panjang ke pendek, kalau saya bagitau, buat ape saya tutup betul tak? Actually, my hair, my voice, everything on me except my face and my hands are to be covered. Ini semua in Islam kita panggil “aurah” ataupun makna bahasanya “rahsia”. Jadi, rambut saya panjang ke pendek itu rahsia saya la. awak faham?”

“wah, this is actually my first time orang bagitahu saya yang perempuan Islam tak boleh bagitahu rambut dia panjang ke pendek. Yang saya tahu mereka kena tutup je… ini first time saya dengar rambut tu rahsia,”

I just smiled with what he said. We talked a lot that day.

He was the one who said he figured me out as a person that will never be swayed by anything unless my main goal is achieved first. Nak kata aku lurus la tu…hehe

Nak deny pun tak boleh…sebab memang aku ni lurus sikit~~ kawan2 suke kena kan aku. Tapi aku tak kesah, sebab aku sayang diorang…diorang tak buli cuma usik2 je…

Pastu bila supervisor tanya apa azam baru~ aku jawab aku nak berusaha lebih dan increase confident in dealing with people. But actually I just wanted to do my best in my study, graduate, and serves people as soon as possible.

Semalam time tengok cerita Rapunzel ngan kawan2, hero cerita tu tanya kenapa Rapunzel looked not happy when she’s finally get to see the lanterns. Rapunzel said. (lebih kurang la mcm ni)

“I’m afraid…I afraid that this dream won’t be as what I thought it might be…and if it did, what will I do next eugene?”

“well, that’s the fun part of it…you can have a new dream~”

Hehe…aku suke tengok movie kartun Disney! (although orang kata Disney ngn Israel adalah sekufu). I won’t deny it, but at least I’m taking only good things from it. Insya allah~

Azam Tahun Baru 2011 ^^

First day at school;

"sampai tetido nak tunggu waktu

ke sekolah," ayah.

First day at school;

"1 Azam," Ayah

Yesterday, ayah posted me some picture of Amir going to school. Hehehe, if only he knew how I was touched by these pictures. Amir is just starting his days as a Standard one student. Ayah was there with him on his very first day. On the other hand, me, his first child is here in Kuantan, really far away from him, still in her third year of studies.

Ayah is actually trying to show us how much he cares for us.. ^^ I know~~

Today in clinic my supervisors ask me what my new year aims are~~ I told them I wanted to strive harder in whatever I do and to increase my confidence in social interaction.

Overall, I hope I can improve in my studies and clinics. Anyway, I'm going to be an audiologist afterall.

"It's really a pleasure to get to know you,"

haha~ it was fun to be able to converse fully in English with someone. Yesterday, Prof. Sis Aisyah suddenly happen to be talking to me. Although my English is not so good but I took the chance! I'm so proud of myself hehehehe...

I also collected enough courage to ask her whether she is related to sis nurlin. She was shocked! She even giggled over the thought haha~ She explained that she is a very good friend of bro saiful and sis nurlin. hehe. I even told her that her nose look alot like sis nurlin's..haha

oo and today is a special holiday because Malaysia soccer team won the Piala Suzuki. My best friends were no where to be found here in Kuantan because they are home! hehe I missed my mom!

well, that's enough for today~ I'm doing my SPSS. Wish me luck (Back at you!)

He had change so much

He's someone that my heart kinda jump when I see him.

It's been a while since the last time I saw him.

But just as always, he's always in his own world completely ignoring me by the sideway~ uhuk huk huk.

I learned a lot from life and you.

awak...hehehehehhehehehe... nak bagitau ni~ kalo awk suke, saya lagiiiiii suke wak!! haha~~ :DDD

awak...hehehehehhehehehe... nak bagitau ni~ kalo awk suke, saya lagiiiiii suke wak!! haha~~ :DDD

p/s~ GOOD LUCK IN UPCOMING EXAM!! ^^

It's not good bye

It's not good bye by Laura Pausini

Now what if I never kiss your lips again
or feel the touch of your sweet embrace.
How would I ever go on?
Without you there?s no place to belong
Well someday love is going to lead you back to me
but till it dose I'll have an empty heart
So I'll just have to believe
somewhere out there you're thinking of me
Until the day I let you go,
Until we say our next hello
It's not goodbye.
Til I see you again
I'll be right here remembering when
And if time is on our side
there will be no tears to cry on down the road
there is one thing I can't deny
It's not goodbye
You'd think I'd be strong enough to make it trough
and rise above when the rain falls down
But its so hard to be strong
when you've been missing somebody so long
It's just a matter of time I'm sure
but time takes time and I can't hold on
so wont you try as hard as you can
to put my broken hearth together again?
Until the day I let you go,
Until we say our next hello
It's not goodbye.
Til I see you again
I'll be right here remembering when
And if time is on our side
there will be no tears to cry on down the road
there is one thing I can't deny
It's not goodbye

There's a simple reason why I'm still smiling...

When I felt that Audiology may not be for me~ There's simply a reason for me to kept holding on. My nightmare of having practicals at government settings melt down when I met these angels;

comel kan adik ni? nama dia esya!

I met this lovely little baby girl at a nursery where I had to carry out a Hearing Screening Program. Seeing her playing around and willing to play with me reminds me of Amir! It's a great thing that she wasn't afraid of strangers like me ^^

some more picture of her;

comel kan dier!

"fill ur house with laughter,"

The nursery is located not far from my university. This is how the nursery looks like;

And also some picture of the other angels there ^^

(stop being esya-biased lyanna! keh keh keh...)

Before the hearing screening was held at the nursery. My department of Audiology and Speech Language Pathology (in collaboration with other department in Allied Health Sciences) had done a hearing screening at our very own university during the International Islamic University Kuantan Open Day (IKOD). As the one in charge of the hearing screening programme we are really thankful to our Head of Department, Bro Saiful Adli Jamaluddin and our very own lecturer Sis Nurlin to supervised us during the program! Thanks to all the fourth years seniors who are willing to supervised us too.

I forgot to took some pictures on that day. But fortunately I had the chance of snapping Uzma's pictures. She's adorable! I wish Bro. Saiful and Sis. Nurlin won't mind for me to have some Uzma pictures here; hehe.. here goes~~ introducing UZMA!

omg, just look at her! ^^ adorable!!!!

she got her father's nose and her mother's eyes ^^

There's so much reason for me to keep holding on to Audiology. Hwaiting Yana-shii.

Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah, for these lovely gifts.

haha~ trying my best to win Mastermind!!

haha~ I tried my best...

hope I can get the giveaway!! yeah! thanks to aa-chan for the oppurtunities hehe ^^

aa-chan is an english instructor at south korea. He reminds me of my childhood dream~ I have always wish to be an English teacher. (I even sent some application for TESL Teaching English As Second Language~ unfortunately I didn't get it and now I'm stuck here at a clinic doing my practicals with 'scary I don't understand why' supervisors hahahahaha!)

Life is not easy. So don't make it even difficult to others~ Just be kind ^^