One-sided Crush

Some of us may not have the courage to love...

The 'love bug' keep on bugging and bugging... there's just so many reason to love that person... there's just so many ways to like that person... every little thing that he did just keep on making you smiling...

It is wrong to love someone secret-ly? ^^

Do you know the advantages of one-sided crush?... (I got this from a lovely korean drama!) hehe

"You won't spend money,"

~when you're dating, you exchange gifts, you often call and sms...

"There are no restrictions so there's lots of freedom,"

~I can do what ever I want, anytime I want... no need to tell him... haha

"There's no need to always consider the partner feelings,"

~It saves the effort of being so nice in front of him... hehe

"No expectation of anything from the partner, so by just watching him or her is enough,"

~I don't expect him to know my feelings... therefore as long as he's OK, I'm super OK!

"When I want it to stop, I can stop at any time,"

~I can tell my heart to give up on him and since I'm the only one who will be sad, it's better that way... hehe...

unrequited love club secretary,

Lyanna shii ^^

p/s~ sometime it's just better to have it that way... thanks for at least letting me know what I could have.. hehe..

"bercinta selepas bernikah itu lebih indah..."

Mama Pesan; "Kalau berkawan...

My mom once told me;

"kalau berkawan, jangan rapat sangat,"

When she uttered those words, I was just twelve. Majority of my friends back then was girls...(same as now the only male friends that I have now is only Si Fulan and Si Fulan). I can't really see why. But I have always been an obedient one. The closest friends that I ever have are only Chika and my mom. hehe... ^^

I believed my mom's words always carries meaning..

p/s~ I got an earmold practical this afternoon~ Wishing that it will be a smooth one... and oh, it's the 6th day of fasting, my tummy is getting used to it, the gastric pain is lesser. Alhamdulillah ^^

Left Unsaid...

huhu... am I really a 22year old?...

oh, I'm getting older but my head is still the same as it was ten years ago. What is happening to you lyanna?

Everybody is ahead from you. Oh, God, why do I felt this way...

In this beautiful months of Ramadhan, I kept on having flashed back of my childhood memories. If only things are as smooth as it was back then. oh, no... I'm not suppose to use this forbidden words "if only"...

Subhanallah, Lyanna wake up, shake it off, and move on. Settle important things first. Remember you're a third year student right now. Filled your head with something!

p/s~ I'm having a chaotic mind right now... need to recollect my memories and put them all together. Lyanna~~~~ jia you!!

P.U.T.U.S A.S.A

Baru je belajar maksud putus asa...

kan orang selalu pesan jangan pernah berputus asa kan...

too bad~ dalam hidup 22 tahun ni, baru hari ni aku betul-betul tahu apa maksud putus asa.

betul kata orang, "Life is the greatest teacher,"

Terima kasih kat awak, saya belajar makna putus asa daripada awak... Saya tak salahkan awak, malah saya berterima kasih. Alhamdulillah, aku belajar sesuatu dari kehidupan. ^^

impossible! what? kurus! hahaha~

Please take a look at the picture once again...

Yes, that very picture la yang buat norsyazana sahal ketawa bagai nak rak...

hehe... I have this post-it note that I put it on my study board, while Xana was at my desk, she accidentally read it and she burst into laughter... hee hee.

I had a medical check up last year. Alhamdulillah my heart is working fine, my sugar level is at a healthy level, my blood count is okay (I did donate some blood for the very first time in my life)... BUT it's just my BMI~~~~ as a not so tall, and not so thin person, I fall into the category of PRE-OBESE...he he...

Sincerely, it had been my dream to be thinner and skinny... hahahaha... I love sports and outdoors activities. Insya Allah, I'll do my best to have at least a healthy BMI. hmm...

I never judge people by appearance but I wish I can look the best for my self, for my future career (so that people are not scared by me~hehehe), and for my health as well!

So, yana-shi, hwaiting! jia you8x...

As a 3rd year student

hmmm... in this new semester, I'm quite busy with clinical session. We were given schedule to be having our practical in the ENT department of HTAA as well as our new clinic at JHC. Subhanallah, only God knows how nervous I am for each and every session that I had. Only God knows if I'm going to be more and more nervous for my next session... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!

Today, I had a great day, I woke up quite early, doing laundry, get some lunch with my friends, and I had some revisions on auditory amplification. Right after Asar prayers, I had my sport gear on and went for a jog in the park...hmmm...now I'm quite sleepy~ but still I have some reading to do. Tomorrow we got thesis presentation by our final year seniors. Wish them all the best.

p/s~ I did well today~ going to be more busy tomorrow! ^^

Shima ~ Luka di lukai

Shima

Luka Dilukai

Kanan dan kiri

Cuba berlari

Masih ku dihujani

Tohmah dan caci

Jangan sekali

Aku diletak ke bawah

Hanya kerana jalan

Hidup yang susah

Tak siapa di antara

Kita di dunia

Memilih jalan hidup

Yang derita

Aku sering dipersenda

dan sering dikecewa

Oleh hati mereka

Yang tak punya rasa

Ingin ku mengecap bahagia

Padamu kasih yang menjanjikan setia

Namun belum sempat kumerasa

Mimpi yang dibina

Hati mudah berdarah semula

kerana dustanya....

Terhempas lagi

Sekian kali

Luka yang dilukai menguji diri

Namun begitu

Aku tabahkan semangat

Biar waktu merawat

Segalanya...

Berlapang dada...

Bukan mudah... untuk kita membenci apa yang kita dah start sayang... susah weh.

Bukan mudah juga untuk kita pasti kan apa yang kita rasa tu sebenarnya adalah perasaan sayang atau cuma mainan emosi... susah weh.

Tapi apa yang aku belajar dari seseorang (seorang yang aku sudah anggap seperti kakak sendiri) ialah walau apa pun yang terjadi...walau apa pun keputusan yang dia buat...kita mesti lah berlapang dada.

Semua mainan cinta monyet ni memang membuai perasaan. Kalau tidak dikawal, kelak mungkin akan membinasakan diri...betul weh.

Jadi apa yang aku dah putuskan; oleh kerana si dia tak tahu pun yang aku suka kan dia~ jadi aku boleh lah berlapang dada. Alhamdulillah, lebih baik aku tumpukan pada benda2 yang lebih prioriti daripada perasaan aku terhadap si dia... ^^

Riding a rainbow of happiness...

this pic taken from melissa's blog~

I realized that I never been truthful to myself...

Shouldn't 'me' be the most important person that I have to be truthful to???...

At least please be truthful to yourself, it will hurt less.

okay, here goes;

I learned that I'm falling in love with someone. [there I said it..:))) ]

I learned that 'falling' in love, (just like what melissa said in her blog),

"when you're supposedly "falling" in love, it's not like you're falling down some dark rabbit hole you'll never be able to crawl out of.It's more like you're riding a rainbow of happiness higher and higher until you begin to see the tip of white clouds and lush blue skies,"

I also learned that falling in love can bring the hurtful pain that you'll never imagine. It can unconscionably bring you smiles and tears.

I also learned that by falling in love, it got me wondering, (just like what melissa said in her blog),

*Why is it that we meet people when we do?

*Do the fates have some master plan to conspire against us (I didn't mean to make that sound so paranoid. Really.)?

*Is it even possible to reconnect with someone at a different time and a different place in both your lives?

*Will the past always be right behind you, or can you forge ahead with a future together, despite the not-so-great circumstances in which you first met.

*Is there such a thing as a "second" first meeting, if that makes any sense?

p/s~ hmmm... I learned that I like him the first time that he call me 'lyanna' while others are calling me 'nurul'. I realized that that's the moment where my heart beats stop for the first time ever. ^^

What I have felt for him is not something that I want him to know. I'm glad that he once had stepped into this little world of mine and make my world going catastrophically wrong sometime. ^^

What I don't want him to know is that I like him.

And what I really want him to know is that I do like him. (seeeee, I've told you he'd make my world up side down now...ohhhhh ^^)

Falling in love again and again. I'm happy that I get to know you... It was cute, and charming. And of course it had always made me smile ^^ (and sometime make me bang my head on the table because of all my stupid action where you're around!)

Jogging.. jogging.. giggling with Xana Miller all the way..

Just had a jog at Tasek Bandar (a stone throw from UIA Kuantan campus)...

I was with my beloved girlfriend Xana Miller...

It was fun...

I was giggling with her all the way to the park and all the way back... We chat and chat like crazy~ ^^

We talk bout boys, clinics, and of course supervisors... hee hee...

I really had a heart-out... all my pressures are at least loosen a little.

I hope to have this kind of jog everyday... thanks for the fun Xana Miller! I heart you!

p/s~ really need to lose some pounds!!!!!