There's a simple reason why I'm still smiling...

When I felt that Audiology may not be for me~ There's simply a reason for me to kept holding on. My nightmare of having practicals at government settings melt down when I met these angels;

comel kan adik ni? nama dia esya!

I met this lovely little baby girl at a nursery where I had to carry out a Hearing Screening Program. Seeing her playing around and willing to play with me reminds me of Amir! It's a great thing that she wasn't afraid of strangers like me ^^

some more picture of her;

comel kan dier!

"fill ur house with laughter,"

The nursery is located not far from my university. This is how the nursery looks like;

And also some picture of the other angels there ^^

(stop being esya-biased lyanna! keh keh keh...)

Before the hearing screening was held at the nursery. My department of Audiology and Speech Language Pathology (in collaboration with other department in Allied Health Sciences) had done a hearing screening at our very own university during the International Islamic University Kuantan Open Day (IKOD). As the one in charge of the hearing screening programme we are really thankful to our Head of Department, Bro Saiful Adli Jamaluddin and our very own lecturer Sis Nurlin to supervised us during the program! Thanks to all the fourth years seniors who are willing to supervised us too.

I forgot to took some pictures on that day. But fortunately I had the chance of snapping Uzma's pictures. She's adorable! I wish Bro. Saiful and Sis. Nurlin won't mind for me to have some Uzma pictures here; hehe.. here goes~~ introducing UZMA!

omg, just look at her! ^^ adorable!!!!

she got her father's nose and her mother's eyes ^^

There's so much reason for me to keep holding on to Audiology. Hwaiting Yana-shii.

Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah, for these lovely gifts.

haha~ trying my best to win Mastermind!!

haha~ I tried my best...

hope I can get the giveaway!! yeah! thanks to aa-chan for the oppurtunities hehe ^^

aa-chan is an english instructor at south korea. He reminds me of my childhood dream~ I have always wish to be an English teacher. (I even sent some application for TESL Teaching English As Second Language~ unfortunately I didn't get it and now I'm stuck here at a clinic doing my practicals with 'scary I don't understand why' supervisors hahahahaha!)

Life is not easy. So don't make it even difficult to others~ Just be kind ^^

Good Man~

R.L ~Good Man... it's a lovely song. I heard it in Beast Documentary episode 2. The boys were separated in 2 groups to be judged vocally.

I was just a boy and not a man
Falling deep in love was not the plan
Baby, because of you and what you do
You made me a good man, oh, baby

Right now I'm in the mood of finishing my assignment in Health management. yah! hwaiting!!! ^^

As a student

Clinical attachment at hospital M~ I realized that it's gettin' tougher.

Frankly~ I admit that my communication skills is not something I can be proud of. huhu.

But honestly, I've tried my best to communicate well with the patients. I tried my best to perform the procedures~ But I guessed "well" is not good enough for my supervisors.

But hey, supervisors are supervisors~

Although I started to "despise" them, I still have respect for them.

Sincerely~ everytime I have to face them, my heart jumped like crazy~ there's this thoughts of

"I must have done something terrible to deserve this kind of treatment!"

"oh, god, I must not do anything wrong today,"

"oh, god, I have to this perfectly,"

"oh, god, he's gonna be mad~~~"

at least what I can do is~~ not to sacrifice my sane state of mind and accept all the critics, always remember my goal of having this clinical attachment~ to expose myself to the hospital settings of audiologist officers.

oh god, it's only you who can help me~

Eid 2010

Alhamdulillah, praises to Allah that I am still able to celebrate Aidilfitri this year. ^^

As usual we started the first Syawal to Mak tok's house~ then we headed to Kampung Melayu to Atok Mak's house and finally we're off to Parit Raja, Batu Pahat to Nenek Mardhiah house~

Extremely happy to see my cousins, nieces, and nephews!!

p/s~ I got the most duit raya compared to all my siblings...even my second sister doesn't get the duit raya because people mistook her as the first child.. hehe ^^

Naseb baik chika okay jer... no hard feelings ya!

To all makcik2 and pakcik2 yg bg sy duit raya ~terima kasih and hmmm saya anak sulung!!! bukan anak ke2... hehe^^

tapi apa2 pun "kechik tapak tangan, nyiru saya tadahkan,"

to adik2~ hari raya is not just about "duit raya" and "balik kampung" ok... salam atok tu puas2..^^

Kad Raya, Sampul Kad Raya, dan Setem itu --->

kekeke... today, in facebook Mak Su tagged me in the 'kad raya' picture as I attaced above...
Thanks Mak Su and do forgive me for anything that I did wrong to you.
It's still is very early to send those 'Aidilfitri' thingy... but it's never is too early to seek for forgiveness and says sorry to anyone. So, therefore, oleh itu;

"Saya nak susun 10 jari, memohon maaf pada kenalan2," ^^~eye smile

Have you send any card raya to anyone?
I remembered the first time I received a card raya... it was from a primary school of mine... kekeke...
I remembered sending a card raya to my male friends... in the card I drew many characters of Naruto [because I knew that they liked Naruto so much]... they can't stopped smiling hehe ^^
wahhhh! really need some card raya and stamps right now... I miss my family and old friends... Although I know I can always call them but I just really miss them!

Hot Issue~ Lailatul Qodr

hehe currently listening to this song "Hot Issue" by 4minutes... ^^

I'm in the middle of leafing through my epidemiology notes. I hope the mid-examination for this paper won't end up like Health Management's and Auditory Amplification's paper. "Crossing my fingers"~ in Islamic we don't do it this way; the Islamic way is to whisper or says our prayers... Insya Allah.

Oh yes, I didn't mention to you 'bout my Auditory amplification's paper right? well, it was a 'disaster' as well~~ [aiyak! how much disaster yana?!]

Although the paper will only carry about 15% towards the final paper but having those kind of question really made my mind gone out blank! gaaahh!

It wasn't my lecturer fault~ the questions was indeed direct... whose fault is it then? ahaaaa, where your finger pointing right now?~~~ [right at my nose! paaaPP!]

however, ehem... I think I did pretty well in my Auditory Electrophysiology's paper...

Hope it will turned up well~~ yosh!

Anyhow~ my friends succeed in persuading Dr. Aidil to revealed the result later after Idul Fitr...

[the pictures of Idul Fitr are flowing in my mind right now, hopefully all of us will have the opportunity/rizk to have this year Idul Fitr joyfully!]

Lailatul qodr is just around the corner;

"Samada kita cari atau tak, Lailatul Qodar itu pasti terjadi... terpulang pada kita la akan apa bentuk amalan kita malam itu, akan apa corak kegiatan kita malam itu, akan apa yang kita harapkan untuk diri kita sendiri pada malam itu. Ayuh berlumba-lumba dalam kebaikan. Setahun hanya sekali, meraikan malam yang lebih baik daripada 1000 bulan ini~ ^^"

Terlupa bawa dadu pegi exam Health Management! hah!

Ok, the title is seriously not funny...

Exam pagi tadi memang mencabar betul.. 45 MCQ's and only one short essay!

Bukan ape, nota yang cuma 4 chapter~ tebal dia dah macam nota introduction to audiology 1 semester punyer... mak oi, bayangkan lah kalau ada 45 MCQ's yang kena jawab sementara nota-notanya aku cuma baca dua tiga kali sahaja. Aku bukan terror tahap sekilas ikan di air aku tahu jantan betina! haha...

eh, A kot betul... eh, B macam betul jer...

hmm... eh, A dengan B ni bukan ke sama maksud dier... yang mana ek...

Adoi.. nak C ke nak E... hmm...

adoi fakta Dr. Azlina dengan fakta Dr. Munirah ni lain la pulak~~ dah la soalan MCQ, kalau essay boleh lah aku berhujah sikit... adoi, mati-laaa

Jadi, oleh itu, oleh yang demikian rupa... lain kali jangan lah study last minute cik adik oi! ^^

Kisah di clinic #1

Supervisor A: dah siap? (sambil menjenguk ke dalam bilik ujian adult)

Supervisor B: (tersengih)... biasa la, buah cempedak di luar pagar... (lantas memandang aku yang tengah jadi observer)

spontan, aku tunduk memandang lantai dan memandang rakan clinic yang tengah instruct patient dalam hearing cabin... huhu

Supervisor B: jawab dalam hatiiiii... (dengan nada sarkastik sekali,)

Each supervisor have their own way of conducting their practices, as student we must be a fast learner. Learn from mistakes. I do lot of mistakes and I even kept telling myself, am I able to ever be a competent audiologist? huhu...

But what I've been telling myself lately~ everybody makes mistakes, and there's always space for improvement... please don't torture us, we have a lot more to learn from you guys.

"Mati la aku..." ~sedikit sebanyak gugup hati aku hilang bila aku sebut ayat ni.. hehe.. kalo orang cina dengar marah woooo.. suwey diorang ckp hehe

One-sided Crush

Some of us may not have the courage to love...

The 'love bug' keep on bugging and bugging... there's just so many reason to love that person... there's just so many ways to like that person... every little thing that he did just keep on making you smiling...

It is wrong to love someone secret-ly? ^^

Do you know the advantages of one-sided crush?... (I got this from a lovely korean drama!) hehe

"You won't spend money,"

~when you're dating, you exchange gifts, you often call and sms...

"There are no restrictions so there's lots of freedom,"

~I can do what ever I want, anytime I want... no need to tell him... haha

"There's no need to always consider the partner feelings,"

~It saves the effort of being so nice in front of him... hehe

"No expectation of anything from the partner, so by just watching him or her is enough,"

~I don't expect him to know my feelings... therefore as long as he's OK, I'm super OK!

"When I want it to stop, I can stop at any time,"

~I can tell my heart to give up on him and since I'm the only one who will be sad, it's better that way... hehe...

unrequited love club secretary,

Lyanna shii ^^

p/s~ sometime it's just better to have it that way... thanks for at least letting me know what I could have.. hehe..

"bercinta selepas bernikah itu lebih indah..."