Despise...

Sadly, there are just so many things that I despise in this world of mine.

Recently, I learned something:

"Harta yang paling besar ialah hati yang sentiasa syukur, dan lidah yang sentiasa zikir kepada Allah"

Yesterday, I hurt someone by my own words. I really didn't mean it. I'm sorry.

Today, I saw something that brings burden to me. I try so hard to just let it be. But I guess I can't. (oh, this so mean heart of mine!)

I Live My Life For You

Firehouse

"Mandi Minyak" haha ^^

Last friday was the third day I'm working in Lam Soon Edible Oil Sdn Bhd. I was in charge of bottle capping. Abg Zul and lao pan was helping me with the technical stuff at first. When I get the grip of how to handle the machine~ they would leave the machine on my responsibility.

The first one hour is okay, but then I lost my grip with the bottle and the machine. The bottle (with oil in it) was compressed and then the bottle "jumped" and the oil "fly" out and...you guess the rest.

Hahaha, I was covered with 'Naturel Canola Oil' from the top of my head.

Makcik 1: Ya Allah, kesian nya kau Dik...

Makcik 2: Dah, dah, awak pergi tandas dulu... (aku still terkebil2 kat situ)

Akak 1: Dik nanti kat tandas basuh cermin mata tu guna sabun nanti kelabu...

Akak 2: pergi tandas dulu dik...

Aku: Takpe kak, jap je lagi dah nak rehat. ^^

Makcik India: Mandi minyak ke!! hehe

It was a fun experience~ usually lao pan should get angry because the machine suppose to be operated non-stop~ the nature of 'keje kilang' haha. All the operators are helping me. I'm grateful.

Abg Zul was nice as ever.

Fan

Epik High

Lam Soon Sdn Bhd, again ^^

Today, I finally get a part time job in a local factory within my neighborhood.

Again, (after about 2 years) I'm working in Lam Soon Sdn Bhd. It is a factory which produce cooking oil like Knife, Minyak Cap Buruh, Canola oil, and packaging several kind of soap like May, Fruitale, Lux etc. Some workers there still remembered me and my sister who once had worked there for our previous holiday. ^^

Spending my holiday without working is a no-no for me since I left high-school.

But still I'm grateful with what I have. Anyway the money I earned is more precious than those gadgets and sparkling-eye-catching stuff that they didn't have to pay a single cent to own it. (sounded evil didn't I? haha^^)

However as human being, sometime I tend to be upset too. Seeing others can have whatever they want and still blabber about it, make my heart sick. (sounded kinda mad didn't I? ^^)

I don't mean to be harsh. Maybe this is how I soothe my aching heart. I'm always appear as a happy person because I choose to be a happy person. But it never meant that I won't get hurt.

"Syukur, aku masih disini,
Syukur, aku bernafas lagi,
Syukur, aku masih berdiri,
Masih ada kuasa dalam tubuh ini,"

Lagu Syukur

Altimet

I was born on...

Just wanted to share this interesting stuff hehe.

The sole breadwinner of my family

I don't know how to start.

hmm..It is now 11.35pm and my father isn't home yet. It's not a bad thing but it never failed to make me worry.

Since I heard he is driving the taxi again, I felt a relieved but it still worrisome for me. I remembered he used to call me a few years back, when he made a little accident every time he dozed off while driving~ he would have this trembling but a low tone in his voice and he said "kak yan, ayah accident lagi,". It will struck my heart but knowing that nothing happen to him, just that the taxi have to be fixed (and it will become more worrisome for him than me)~ I'll broke into silent tears.

I remembered, my first time of working.

I work as an operator in an oil factory~ on the very next day my body is aching and I had a slight fever but I kept it to myself. My father would first send me and my sister to the factory before finally off to work. In the car, I can see my father from the back. With the pain that I'm having because of work, I finally can see how my father have been enduring his pain while being the sole breadwinner of my family. I can finally understand what a single penny earned by one's hardship means.

Driving a taxi is not easy.

• The taxi that my father drive is not his~ therefore he must pay the rent of the taxi per day to the owner. ~therefore, whether he was able to find more customers or not, he must pay the taxi rent.
• Before he can drive a taxi he must first have a taxi license. He told me he spend about 1500++ for the license.
• When there is an accident~ my father had to pay for the 'fixing' part and sending the taxi to the workshop also means that his work will be pending. So while the taxi is being 'fixed', he can not earn anything.
• Accidents is likely to happen if you're easily dozing off while driving.

"Find a man with ambitions, not only a man with abilities. Because one day the abilities may dissapear..."

Money is not everything but everything needs money. One definition about money can be influenced by their environment, how they were raised, and their own experienced in life.

Seeing my father hardship in every single day make me wanna quick end up my student life and replace his place as soon as possible. My mother would always remind me "That's why, you should study harder and be successful. It is all that we have ever wanted from you,"

Ludwig Van Beethoven

Moonlight Sonata

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