Sometime I realised "why am I being sad for those silly things?". But actually I'm quite tired with my life. Actually it is not so tiring for me to have class the whole day then having volleyball training in the evening every single day. But how people treats me make me feels that all my effort are just a waste of time. Why am I the one only serious about training, winning a tournament and stuff, while others just feel free to be there or not...
Sometime I remembered the saying of the Al-Junaid al-Baghdadi: "The one who have good mental health is the one that know what is the things that need to be done before other things (priority to others). The one that always follows the guide from Allah and his messenger and know how to distinguish between something beneficial to him and not in this life and in the hereafter."
Now I realised that i have to take a deep breath, and relax. The game is just around the corner. Focus, and improve myself. Dance with others and I will sail through. I'm sorry to those who may be hurt by my words and actions. Sometime I really feel that maybe by telling others about my opinion gonna less the pressure that I feel. But I think it's best to keep it to myself.
