why people change...

Why people change...

Even the world is changing, and so do people.

Lyanna,

If you treat life as difficult, believe me it never gonna be easier,

but if you treat life as a challenge, believe me there is no bigger challenge that we cannot overcome.

I always felt that I always walked in other's shadow, well maybe, that's what I've chosen to do. I'm afraid of making mistake and I can not bear blames...

Now I realized that my challenges are small compared to others. No one is asking me to invent something that benefits the nation or to plan something that improves the quality of life for the sake of humanity....the worse thing that I happen to do is to face patients, seniors, lecturers and supervisors in the clinic. The only thing that I have to memorize by heart for my coming papers are just things limited in my expertise. Learn that you're lucky Lyanna. huhu .:cry:.

MASUM~ I guess it's just never meant to be

Bismillahir rahmanir rahim,

Well first of all, my first paper gonna be on this Friday. My heart will finally burst out of anxious and nervous. Oh!

Secondly, I felt extremely happy (plus a bit jealous) for my kuantan volleyballers friends (seniors) who were chosen for MASUM which will be in the middle of this year. Although I felt a little crush in my biggest organ inside me (which is my heart), I didn’t felt that sad because in May I should be at home (in Johor) because it's my semester break and usually I'm out for part time job. But deep inside me I did felt a little sadness because I really hope I can play for MASUM although I know others are better than me (what a self-centered person I am). But hey, volleyball is not everything (try to soothe myself~ luckily always work on me ^^) . I'm thrilled that I've done well in my clinical hours for this semester. So, I wish all the best for Gombak's players and Kuantan's players for this coming MASUM. A bit of advice:

"Be not afraid of greatness.

Some are born great.

Some achieve greatness.

And some have greatness thrust upon them," (copied, guess where hehe)

Last but not least, this coming 3rd of April, UMP (University Malaysia Pahang) going to be conducting a 4penjuru volleyball tournament and they've invited UIA to participate (always envied UMP's because they have permanent coach, but recently I felt lucky because 'payak' was willing to coach us for some basic thingy of volleyball). However, I think I have to pass because of my papers. Wise men said, some are born genius and that's not me (absolutely :ppp) . I have to work hard to be one. .:smile:. YY

p/s- MASUM, it's just not into you hehe ^^

Life does not always go our way...

Assalamualaikum,

Last monday, my department conducted an annual grand dinner celebrating our final fourth year seniors. As a tradition, the freshies will be conducting the dinner, and alhamdulillah they manage to do it properly. That night, the moment I arrived at the venue, I was mumbling to myself, "why am I here,", unfortunately Xana miller heard it and began to giggle. hehe, I'm not used to this kind of situation and my friend is having fun watching me mumbling to myself hehe. Well, eventually the night goes well. The part I love the most was the gimmick video prepared by them, and the part I hate the most was the food was not good~seriously. I'm not he kind of person that would be picky on food but telling you the truth, it was not appetizing. But, realizing that some people are starving at the other side of the world, at least I'm clearing my own plate.

Yesterday, it was my first clinical hour. My clinical partner was Ijat. My first impression towards the clinic was ~it's going to be challenging. I'm going to do a hearing test on real patient! I'm going to be nervous, I'm going to forget the procedures, my mind will black-out, my supervisors gonna be mad, and it's all gonna be DOOM...oh!

But the thing is all that nasty things only played in my heart and alhamdulillah, I manage to be calm, I did the procedure pretty well, my friend is doing a good job as well, my supervisors are always there guiding us. Alhamdulillah. Our first patient was Zudin, 1 year and 10 months, he had a normal physical dev but he had speech delay. The second patient was Aina, 11 months old girl. We were manage to carry out the hearing test on both of them although the first patient was difficult in maintaining good state of response that are crucial for the result. On the end of the clinical hours, one of our supervisors said surprisingly he was impressed with the way we conducted the hearing test for a first timer. Alhamdullillah, I'll take that as a challenge to be more better in the clinical hours in the future!

Finally, I'm able to concentrate on my final assignment~ case study of children with any physical, developmental, speech, or any other disorder. Hope for the best. "When you take things by heart, you'll always gonna make it!". Love yana, hwaiting!!

CCAC volleyball tournament

It was fun... The final match was between Sciences team and Staff team, and finally Staff manage to get the gold medal hehe. Congratulation and keep on playing hard, ^^

oh, on the other hand my team have to back-out from semifinal because three of us have class on that particular time. Sorry guys. But alhamdulillah, the committee also prepared a hamper prize for 4th and 3rd place...^^

looking towards other volleyball match in the future...so, yana, hwaiting!

How friendship works?

I don't know how friendship works...

Does it works when you talk bad things about others people friendships?

Does it works when you treat her differently from your other "wealthy" friends?

Does it works when you joking harshly to her that it makes she mopping inside??

Does it works when... I don't know how friendship works... huhu

My Challenge ~as a simply nobody

Last night, me, yaya, xana miller, and all my other "healthy allied sciences" friends went to this talk entitled "The Challenge of Generation Y". The speaker was Uztad Hasrizal also known as Abu Saif in his blog Saifulislam.com.

I've learnt so many things from his speech. The most important one is that he said "when we're dealing with people that appear to be having some sort of problem or difficulties in life, don't look at the presenting problems because actually the real problems are deeper."

1. the presenting problems.

2. the real problems.

When we realize that the real problems are more deeper than the presenting problems then we can handle the situation without anger.

Recently I'm having this problem~ I'm not good in managing work ~for example by the end of this semester, my whole class were asked to conduct a screening program in a school. I admitted my friends have done a lot of good work. unfortunately they elected me as the assistant program manager but I have to admit that I didn't do much. The only work I've done was sending the proposal letter to Miss Marina (our lecturer). huhu. I hope I can have more work than that. I hate my position and I hate being me right now.

I've realized that everyone are stressed out because of tons of work, assignments, and the finals are just around the corner, and everyone tend to be all grumpy and moody. Even the slightest problem become a major hindrance and sometime "we" even put our anger on others. Why? huhu. I'm a happy go lucky person~ I hate people to get mad around me (especially when I'm not the one making you mad). However, eventually I kept on smiling. At least I'm not cursing and mocking others and I know my own problems is more suffocating for me. So stop suffocating others. Why just can't we cooperate? By the end of the days we're sitting for the same paper.