Berlapang dada...

Bukan mudah... untuk kita membenci apa yang kita dah start sayang... susah weh.

Bukan mudah juga untuk kita pasti kan apa yang kita rasa tu sebenarnya adalah perasaan sayang atau cuma mainan emosi... susah weh.

Tapi apa yang aku belajar dari seseorang (seorang yang aku sudah anggap seperti kakak sendiri) ialah walau apa pun yang terjadi...walau apa pun keputusan yang dia buat...kita mesti lah berlapang dada.

Semua mainan cinta monyet ni memang membuai perasaan. Kalau tidak dikawal, kelak mungkin akan membinasakan diri...betul weh.

Jadi apa yang aku dah putuskan; oleh kerana si dia tak tahu pun yang aku suka kan dia~ jadi aku boleh lah berlapang dada. Alhamdulillah, lebih baik aku tumpukan pada benda2 yang lebih prioriti daripada perasaan aku terhadap si dia... ^^

Riding a rainbow of happiness...

this pic taken from melissa's blog~

I realized that I never been truthful to myself...

Shouldn't 'me' be the most important person that I have to be truthful to???...

At least please be truthful to yourself, it will hurt less.

okay, here goes;

I learned that I'm falling in love with someone. [there I said it..:))) ]

I learned that 'falling' in love, (just like what melissa said in her blog),

"when you're supposedly "falling" in love, it's not like you're falling down some dark rabbit hole you'll never be able to crawl out of.It's more like you're riding a rainbow of happiness higher and higher until you begin to see the tip of white clouds and lush blue skies,"

I also learned that falling in love can bring the hurtful pain that you'll never imagine. It can unconscionably bring you smiles and tears.

I also learned that by falling in love, it got me wondering, (just like what melissa said in her blog),

*Why is it that we meet people when we do?

*Do the fates have some master plan to conspire against us (I didn't mean to make that sound so paranoid. Really.)?

*Is it even possible to reconnect with someone at a different time and a different place in both your lives?

*Will the past always be right behind you, or can you forge ahead with a future together, despite the not-so-great circumstances in which you first met.

*Is there such a thing as a "second" first meeting, if that makes any sense?

p/s~ hmmm... I learned that I like him the first time that he call me 'lyanna' while others are calling me 'nurul'. I realized that that's the moment where my heart beats stop for the first time ever. ^^

What I have felt for him is not something that I want him to know. I'm glad that he once had stepped into this little world of mine and make my world going catastrophically wrong sometime. ^^

What I don't want him to know is that I like him.

And what I really want him to know is that I do like him. (seeeee, I've told you he'd make my world up side down now...ohhhhh ^^)

Falling in love again and again. I'm happy that I get to know you... It was cute, and charming. And of course it had always made me smile ^^ (and sometime make me bang my head on the table because of all my stupid action where you're around!)