Advice worth listening 2# Life is a battlefield

Life is a battlefield

Life is short so aim for akhirah.

Study is hard so aim for knowledge.

Everyone is not perfect so crying over a spilled milk is a waste.

p/s~ no matter what happen, I will endure it! yana-shii hwaiting! :)

The Flavor of Life (ballads) ~ lyrics 1#

Arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai

sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai

The flavor of life

tomodachi demo koibito demo nai chuukan chiten de

shuukaku no hi wo yumemiteru aoi furu-tsu

ato ippo ga fumidasenai sei de

jirettai no nanode babe?

Arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai

sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai

The flavor of life

Amai dake no sasoi monku aji ike no nai doku

sonna mono ni wa kyoumi mo sosorenai

omoitoori ni ikanai toki datte

jinsei suteta mon janai tte

Doushita no? to kyuu ni kikareru to "uun. nandemo nai"

sayounara no ato ni kieru egao watashi rashikunai

shinjitai to negaeba negau hodo nandaka setsunai

"aishiteru yo" yori mo "daisuki" no hou ga kimi rashii janai?

The flavor of life

Wasurekakete ita hito no kaori wo totsuzen omoidasu koro

furitsumoru yuki no shirosa wo omou to sunao ni yorokobitai yo

Daiyamondo yorimo yawarakakute atatakana mirai

teni shitai yo kagiri aru jikan wo kimi to sugoshitai

"arigatou" to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai

sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai

The flavor of life

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When you thank me,
It somehow seems painful
And that enduring magic that comes after saying goodbye
Leaves a faint taste of the bittersweet.
This must be the flavour of life.

The space where we are neither friends nor lovers
Makes me feel like an unripe fruit dreaming to be harvested.

The way we are is aggravating, baby,
As we never seem to make any progress.

This is why thanking me
Seems to somewhat hurt
And yet the magic that comes after we say goodbye
Leaves traces of the bittersweet.
That is the flavour of life.

With only sugar-coated words and phrases,
Talking seems to have lost its taste.
I just don’t find such things intriguing.

Just because everything is falling apart,
Doesn’t make our lives any more dispensable.

Asking me “What’s the matter?” all of a sudden
Can only elicit the response, “Nothing, nothing at all.”
Yet, when the smile fades away after we have parted,
I don’t seem myself.

Wanting to believe and hoping for hope
Seems to somehow amplify the pain.
“I really like you” is better than “I love you”,
That’s more like you, isn’t it?
Such is the flavour of life.

Suddenly remembering the smell of the person you had almost put behind
Invites a joy that is more innocent than the white of fresh snow.

Devotion means more than diamonds.
I want a warm future in my hands
And in the limited time that is my life, I hope to share it with you.

Still, when you thank me,
It seems somewhat painful
And the magic that comes after we say goodbye
Leaves traces of the bittersweet.
This is the flavour of life.

Creditz to~crystal-ise.vox.com

~it's a lovely song by Utada Hikaru (also an OST for Hana Yori Dango)

p/s~ someone told me; "Just cry if you feel like to cry, don't clench your teeth and hold back, it makes the pain unbearable,"

~saya mmg agak jiwang..huhu^^

I've tried, you've tried, they've tried...

"One more try," he said.
"What is the use of trying?"
"It is a thing which people do,"
(The book of Merlyn)

As the oldest child in my family, I tend to walk in other's shadow.
For me doing something new is always challenging. ^^
Watching others simply do it ~really give some inspirations to me.
I always wanted to do something for the benefits of other but yet I never done anything in my 22years of life. huhu. >_<

Tomorrow, will be my first practical in hearing screening program. I will be handling standard five children. I hope it will go smooth. At least I'm gonna try my best... Yana, hwaiting!

Being Grumpy..

Grumpy...what is grumpy?
you know..a little angry, a little mad... hehe~ i got this definition from a beautiful little girl who is a niece of a very good friend of mine. She's so little but yet so cute and bright..^^

I'm not very good in English so I hope you guys can correct me if I written anything wrong in my blog or for what I've done wrong in the world outside^^...

Someone said that as a good student, you'll tend to sleep less (because of all the studies) and the very next day you'll become tired, agitated, moody, or grumpy. Suddenly you'll have this kind of "Don't talk to me" written all over your face. Scary huh? But I don't quite agree... for me being tired or having some sort of problem is not a reason for me to be all grumpy towards others. Maybe when someone are treating you bad, it's not a reason for you to be harsh on others too. Just because you're having this 'unseen' pain in your heart, it doesn't mean that you have to break other's heart too. I get upset easily but I hope I'll never make someone upset. I hope I never treat others badly. They'll feel bad and so am I.

I'm don't fall in the category of "good" student. Usually I work as hard as others because I love playing a lot. Recently I'm back on the volleyball court again since I didn't played nearly 2 month due to my ankle injury..huhu. I hope I can manage my time for study and other things. InsyaAllah, yana-shii hwaiting!

"We're looking at the same world,"

Yesterday, in my RKUD class, Uztaz said ~ "Philosophy is like mathematics; so 1 plus 1 is 2,". Hearing that, it kinda gave me some energy and spirits that I can again finally make it through this semester…again..Insyaallah, Lyanna-shii, hwaiting! ^^
(just have to take pediatrics in audiology, techniques in audiology, screening for hearing impaired, counseling in communication disorder, special needs and learning, to be similar to mathematics ~ 1 plus 1 there's just gonna be an answer..hehehe)

In the middle of the lectures he added "We're looking at the same world, but with different meaning to it,". This sentence make me wonder and ponder and finally I'm smiling on my own..again..^^ .:smile:.

After thinking earnestly about the sentence "the same world, but in different way of seeing it,". It always made me accept what I am today and what others are to me. Although sometime we seems to feel that we're in despair and gasping for air everyday going through with our lives nevertheless we're still in the same world. Without seeing akhirah as the main goal, we may lost our grasp. Nauzubillahi min zalik.

Just don’t run in facing anything. I always told myself; no need to run ~it'll happen anyway. Always told my mom ~ to keep holding on, I'm always here for her, except if my time is up. Always believe that my mom and my dad are there ~whenever I need them, whether the whole wide world doesn’t seem to need me anymore. Always gonna act strong and wise in front of my siblings ~teaching them that life can be tough and in the end of the day we (family) always gonna love you.

However, the thought of whoever we are, we still share the same world seems funny to me in certain conditions. For example, I realized some of my friends are head over heels in love with someone. Why do I feel funny about it?. Maybe because I never experience those kind of feelings before. Hehe. So it's quite hard for me to understand…I guess? Hehe. What? Jealous? Me, jealous? Hehe maybe…a little~ I guess, hehe^^ oh, and did I tell you, my beloved volleyball senior was married last Monday. Alhamdulillah, "ounnie, chukhahaeyo!!" \(>_<)/. I guess maybe being in love with someone is a great feeling. I remembered when I was little, my Uztaz told me, "Doesn't it feel wonderful when we were loved by someone? Then how would you feel when I tell you that Allah loved everyone who he put Islam in his heart? Isn't it suppose to be more wonderful? Being loved by Allah?" and to myself I was like "yes, Uztaz, indeed." (smiling to myself..again!)

Head over heel in "something" really gave me a good example of "the same small world, but with different view of it". To someone maybe that small tiny thing is a big deal to her and maybe to me the same thing doesn’t bring much concern. Maybe to anyone else, that small tiny thing is nothing to them but maybe it meant the whole wide world to me. See, how it can be different view? I hope I can always spare my time thinking deeply before making any assumptions upon anyone. Anyway, always enjoying smiling to myself whenever my friends tell me anything about (nearly about) anything..hehe..and I ended up being pinch or smack on the shoulder for smirking alone hehe ^^


p/s~ always loved smiling on my own thought..hehe ^^ loving it, parapapapa!

The cutest thing ever...

Last Saturday, I spent my Chinese New Year holiday's at home. My mother told me before that she's babysitting two young babies. Both of them, Arif who is one year and a half old, and Syami who is 3 years old are the most adorable and cutest thing ever!

It was a great thing^^ to see my mom smiling and laughing while cuddling her two "new" sons. It was a great thing also to see Arif and Syami who are really accepting all my family members like their own. Seeing the way they play around with my sibling really recalled how we used to play together when we're small. Hearing them calling my mom "mama", calling me "kak yan", calling amir "abang Amir" ~was the sweetest thing in my life ever. hehe. (just like when Amir first time called out "mama")

On the very next day, Sunday, we were at Padang Pasir Gudang, watching Adin's soccer game. He'd played as a goalkeeper. Alhamdulillah, he and his team won the second place while champion goes to Taman Perling's team. hehe. Met Alif, who is a childhood's friend of mine. He has grown up a lot. hehe.(^^)

"I'm home"

Insya Allah I will be "sailing" back home this Saturday. It's been a while now. ^^
Missing all my family members. Although the holiday kinda short but at least I'm not gonna be homesick anymore. :heart:

The only thing I hate 'bout going back home is I hate buses. huhu. I'll develop these "motion-sickness" all the way through the journey. huhu.

Nevertheless, I'm glad I'm gonna be home this weekend. My brothers are having their football tournament and all of us will be there, insyaallah. I miss my mom and Amir.

p/s~ Amir called me and said "lamanya...lamanya baru kakyan balik, esok pegi KFC eh". I was like "okay, amir tuggu kakyan eh..." hehe.

"I'm not stupid"

"I'm not stupid" ~suddenly I remembered about this Singapore movie title. If I'm not mistaken, the movie was about Chinese children that are not so good in English, in their school (in Singapore). However they manage to cope with English together with their friends and family. good lor..(^^). Chinese people always struggle for their own place anywhere they were. I hope Malay people will always be like that too.

Yesterday was one of those tough days...My whole class were having our Pediatric's presentation for the first time in front of all the lecturers in my department. I presented the topic "Progressive Hearing Loss among Pediatrics". By the end of the presentations, our lecturers gave out their comments and all I can remember was that they were not very happy with most of our presentations. Sad, it really struck my heart. I felt really bad for my class. Although, I really felt like all my friends did present well, but hearing those kind of comments, I just can't stop felling bad for myself and started to find where my mistakes were. huhu. Oh Allah, I realized, that, I am not quite good in accepting critics..huhu (T_T). I shouldn't be, right?

By the end of the day I ended up cleaning my room. Hehe! I mopped my room, I mopped the stairs, I mopped the corridor...I don't quite know how to settle down this "regret" and "hopeless" feelings of mine. Oh, ottokeyo!.

After I heard every comments from my lecturers earlier, I was like "Is it that bad?" huhu. Maybe deep in my heart, I felt like "I should clean up this mess, stop felling bad for yourself for god sake!". At first, I was wondering around in my room when I got back..then I started to play with my laptop..then eventually I ended up mopping the floor with all these "regrets" and "hopeless" thought playing in my head. hehe. really funny. I guest that's how I settle down these crazy stuff that stuck in my head.

Today, I woke up with these "awkward" feelings. "Huh, am I going to class?". oh, I am. All these weird questions and self-answering stuff keep popping in my mind. As I entered the class, I took a deep breath and I said to myself "Yesterday was just one of those tough days of mine,". Alhamdulillah, my mind was calm and I was able to "suck up" all the lectures today including extra-class (masking topic) with kak fiza was going smooth.. only that I realized I'm not breathing normally, (I usually have normal kind of inhale and exhale) but today I was inhaling deeply- holding it longer than usual and exhaling it with a heavy sigh. huhu, am I still upset? with who? with myself of course. Lyanna, learn from mistakes.

"Kerana manusia rasa bangga bila dipuja, dan rasa kerdil bila dihina," ~ I knew I shouldn't be like that. Ingat pesan mama, "Jangan cepat melatah," ~I knew she's always right. ummi.

Advice worth listening #1

"Tough time doesn't stay, but tough people do,"
I heard this saying from a friend to a friend of a friend of mine.(^^)
Maybe some may ask "why me?" "why it have to be me?" "why?"
But let ask ourselves again, "why shouldn't it be me?" "why shouldn't it be us?". Everything happen for a reason. I believe I shouldn't be harsh to anyone. Although I'm not doing things as what I desired, I shouldn't be harsh on myself. Although other people doesn't seem to do well in something, I shouldn't be harsh on them too. I really hope no one is being harsh on my siblings no matter what their mistake were. Mistakes were meant to be corrected. Nobody is perfect. Well, almost nobody. Being harsh and being firm are two different thing. One can make someone felt like dying and another one can make someone learn making amendments from their mistakes.