I LOVE YOU, Say It Before It's Too Late

I've just read my lovely lecturer of 'English For Academic Purposes' blog's, Madam Norhayati Md Rasip. I love you madam. Thanks for sharing this beautiful writing and I'm sorry for your loss recently. (her belated aunt)

p/s~ alhamdulillah I got A for my EAP.. ^^

Open Arms

Journey (Stevie Perry)

Tolerate Hunger, I'll Try :-)

Truthfully it is a habit~ whenever I am hungry, angry, or tired, it never fail to trigger me to eat more and more. It is a bad habit of mine. Recently I have read an article on "Eat Like Skinny Women" ~I think I wanna change this habit for a healthier me! yeah~~ \(^^)/

In the interesting article (naturalhealth.msn.com) it said;

1. If you're truly hungry - eat a balanced snack, such as a handful of nuts.
2. If you're angry - go for a run and just jumping around; bcoz the heartbeat boost can help dissipate your anger. (I'll try this soon :p)
3. If you're tired, for heaven' sake, sleep! (I like this!! ;-)

"Letih tu tak lekat di badan~ kalo penat rehat sekejap, hilang la.." ~Pak Teh

One more thing the article said that Skinny people realized that hunger isn't an emergency. Thin people tend to tolerate with hunger unlike non-skinny people (on average, not all), they view hunger as a condition that needs to be cured-- and fast! (I wanna change this too, I'll learn to tolerate hunger ;-)

"If you fear hunger, you might routinely overeat to avoid it," says Judith S. Beck, Ph.D, author of the book 'The Beck Diet Solution'

If I'm not mistaken, during the War of Khandaq, Rasulullah companions have to tolerate hunger while digging the Khandaq. Owing to the hunger that piercing through their bones~ they tied a big rock on their tummy to tolerate the emptiness. Subhannallah, on the same time Rasulullah Sallallohu Alaihi Wassalam tied two big rocks~ he was famished as well. Nevertheless, Rasulullah and his companians still strong in the way of seeking Allah's pleasures. Subhanallah!

I'll try to tolerate hunger. Insya Allah :-)

P/S~ I bought some groceries for my mom (with some money from the part-time job). I felt happy as my mom was so pleased... Mama, I'll finished my studies a.s.a.p for you :-)

All I Do Is Win

Dj Khaleed etc.

Nicely done

I wanna thanked my friend, Nur Izzati Nawawi, because I love how her blog looks and I get this wonderful layout from the same website. Thanks Ijat!

I love pretty things, everyone does. That's why I learnt that I like Ajak, haha! :p

“There are just some things you don’t talk about.”

The first reason why I start blogging is so that I can teach myself to only write things in English. I'm not the bright kind of bloggers that shared information and knowledges in their blog. I'm sorry.

Secondly, I'm not quite good in English, that is why I write such simple, tiny, mini, things.

Thirdly, I'm slowly learning to write a good writing. I love reading Melissa Blake's blog. She's awesome!

My world is small compared to you. I hope it is not a sin if I wanted to write what I did and what I felt.

I'm sorry, I just blogged for fun. And I can't deny that I write mostly about my feelings. There's just something that you can not let it out loud. I know when I at least write it down, I can have peace at mind. I can at least shed some tears.

There's just something that you know you must kept because letting it out loud will only worsen the situations.

For A Moment

Today was as normal as other days. I'm still at work when suddenly I got a text from him. For a moment, suddenly my world change.

The reason he was sms'ing me was about the books that I've been offering to him before since I knew that he is going to take a degree in Medicine. Alhamdulillah, I'm happy for him. Degree of Medicine in USM, subhanallah...

I really don't want to get involved in his life. It makes me falling into pieces. This time around I wish I can be a more forward person. I know that the world doesn't revolve around me. And I know the world doesn't revolve around him either.

Last Sunday, her sister was back in Johore with her newly born son. Wow, subhanallah... He is an uncle now. He's taking the degree for five years and I wondered when will he planned to settle down. Do he really still have something with her till today. I really hope they can be together. I pity her. I know she will waits till the end of the world. As for him, that's what we call commitment. You ask for it, now you must answer the call.

Selfish

I've just realized that actually I am a self-centered person. I actually do not care about others. What I really do care is myself. Just like Eun Jo in Cinderella Sisters, a self-centered step sister that wanted to have her own world without anyone else in it except the person she loved. Afraid of any commitment because don't want to get hurt. Doing things that only will bring benefits to me. I'm selfish alright. I'm tired of everything. I'm hurt. I don't want you to know. I really hate you, you and your world. I hate to even think of you.

Inner Loathing

Honestly, I have this one person that I knew since my childhood. He is the smartest person that I ever known. He’s good in sport, education, and God knows what else. He got this personality that makes everybody start liking him the moment they knew his name. He is a good friend though we never quite talk to each other. And since childhood, I knew that this one little girl who also a very good friend of mine had given her heart to him and wish that they would become husband and wife. Until today, without fail, I can still see it in her eyes that she wanted him.

I think I am not a good friend of his. I realized that whenever I know a little bit about him, it end up giving me heart ache and misery. Why do I have to feel this way? It’s wrong. Definitely wrong. So I’ve made my mind. What the use of having this inner loathing. What the use of thinking about him anyway. Silly me. Let him be. I will let him be.

Thinking of You

Katy Perry

Never To Take Sides.

Out of the blue, he slammed the door shut. It made a loud bang, and of course it had made all the members in the house jaws dropped.

“What was that?”

“What happened?”

“Why is he mad?”

“What is wrong with him this time?”

One by one, these questions appeared but none of them are verbally spoken. Everybody knows what it’s like when he’s angry. Some of us even silently whispered our prayers so that he’ll never do anything stupid. Most of us don’t even have the slightest clue of what have gotten into him. What we knew was at least that “someone” has made him mad “again”.

Nobody likes to see other people when they’re angry. But yet, people keeps on making ‘reasons’ for one to be angry. It’s scary when you see other people faces rise in anger…

Sometime it feels like what I have worked to made him change was totally useless. It is actually simple to figure him out~ he is a short tempered person. Seeing he’s upset again really make me worried. The trust that he had given can easily be snapped away.

These holidays have given me the chance to be there for him. Well maybe for others he seems to have making the wrong choice earlier and now he is suffering the consequences. For me, he is still the same old him. But what I’m afraid is I can’t always be there for him. When the holidays are over, he may lose his trust in me again. He would feel that nobody is there for him again. No one to trust, no one to speak to, no one to share a joke and giggles.

The nature of a person is no one likes to be alone. Sometime people did crazy things to attract other’s attentions. If you aren’t the one that always did crazy things, well f.y.i you’re the lucky one that always have somebody on your back. That’s why I teach myself never to take sides.

Say (All I Need)

One Republic.