[Smirk] What will
someone read between these lines?
"He giggled, he
chuckled, I nearly choked…"
Miss A would
suggest, there she goes falling in love again.
Well, sorry to
disappoint you but "nope"…[haha]
This was a body
language that I read from someone because he found "the matter" he
just spoke was crazily funny but I was embarrassed by it. Not a "good
one" but a throw-me-into-the-ditch kind of embarrassment.
People always quotes
that nobody's perfect but this particular person is some kind of narcissist
[well at least what I thought he was cause I'm a no FBI-profiler material]. But
all due respect he is someone that I really respect because of his position in
the educational system and the knowledge that he posses. It's always his
demeanor that some kind of struck me in the heart because respect is to be
earned remember?
Back to me; I'm
still a self-loathing person but not a "ugly-grooming-my-barbie
-doll" kind of self-loathing. I still loved myself but I hate myself for
not trying harder to achieve greater things in my life to avoid all these
hateful circumstances in life. I hate to hear people criticized or mock me.
They were like
"Cockroaches;
You kill one, and then three more pop ups in its place,"
But hey, where's
that wall-like-face Lyanna go? You should stay stronger and carry on with life.
If anyone could matter right now, I would only be my parents and my siblings.
If anyone should be making you head-over-heels in the moment right now, it should
be my parents, my siblings, and baby Nurul Iman Humairah….NO
"boy-wander-doctor-wannabe" can stop me…or his"
23-year-old-cousin-struck-by-a-love-at-first-side-I-don't-know-since-when"
gonna halt me.
It had gotten me
since childhood that, I may be friendly-if-you-know-me and
approachable-if-you-know-how and liking-lovey-dovey-stuff and listening to
love-define-well written & composed songs, but I don't mingles with boys if
I have absolutely no business with them…And Love is not a business, okay.
