Tuesday, April 27, 2010

As guilty as charged ^^

It's been a while since I last wrote in my blog. Maybe because I only write when I felt extremely happy or sad about something. Well, maybe...

Since I'm home for my semester break, I have been spending my time watching a popular tv show "The Mentalist", hmm, it has been my favorite tv shows after CSI.

I'm looking for work as usual but there's nothing out there for me for the time being. I remembered how I used to work in a farm with my sisters, brothers, and father. My father work very hard for our family. He work as a taxi driver before he finally wanna take over this "farm" work from his friend. I remembered how we were working our lungs out in the middle of the 40+ acre of land beneath the striking sun from 7 o'clock in the morning until 6 o'clock in the evening. I remembered how burnt our skin were until I will harshly joked with myself that no one will ever marry me. ^^

I remembered my experienced of facing a big snake (my dad said it was 'ular kapak'). This kind of snake was common in this kind of land that was inside a palm tree estate. On that day, we were making fences so that wild boar will not get into the land and damaging newly planted palm tree. While digging the ground, suddenly my father heard sound on the bushes nearby, my father said "apa tu?" and pointing nearby. I didn't heard the sound so I just turned and looked at where he were pointing. And then there it was~ a snake. I thought it was a cobra bcoz only cobra can stand like that. I was amazed and terrified at the same time. I remembered that I wasn't that amazed if I saw a snake behind glass in a zoo (I'm not interested in zoos). But it was really different in this life threatening situation. Me and me dad keep stepping backward slowly, and to our terror that creature also slowly moved forward. I don't know what to do. I kept silent and only clinged to my father arm. My dad finally get some move~ he slowly picked something on the ground ( I don't quite know what it is becoz my eyes were locked on the snake) and threw it elsewhere. The snake doens't fall into it but it did turn his head. After sometime, that me and me dad and the snake had frozen the all time, the snake finally make it way into the bushes and vanished. Alhamdulillah, I didn't cried but no more seeing me playing by the bushes for no reason.

Working in the farm holds sweet and bitter memories. At least I knew how my mother use to work in the rubber estate in her childhood helping my late grandpa pa and grandma ma. At least I knew how my father spent his adolescent working in a factory. I love these experienced that taught me how life would feel in the hardest way. I'm happy for all these experiences although sometime I can still feel the agony in it. Difficulty in life is just one of the spices in life. Learn to live in it.

Schubert Serenade
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